Sunday, 28 September 2014

On A Treadmill

Everyday I find myself and lose a little deeper,
When my dreams weave stories unheard and queer,
Everyday I wake up to the old sun,
lntroducing me to the new light when the night is done,
Everyday the free air costs me a breath,
When all I crave is a little life,away from death.
                                              Chandni.

Souled

She noticed the stranger staring at her from across the street.The jostling crowd and the honking traffic did nothing to make him take his eyes off her.Her own eyes riveted,watched his drip laughter,as if mocking her for not being able to look away.The glint in his eyes,was setting her soul on fire.She shivered.She tore her gaze away. Without a backward glance,she threaded her way through the crowd and fled.But could she really escape those eyes that stared out at her from every single page of her sketch book?
                                                     Chandni.

Monday, 22 September 2014

Singed



Just as he lit a cigarette,after his morning cup of tea,he found himself an audience to an argument ensuing in that tea stall,over national politics.His silent observation that the diminishing length of his cigarette was inversely proportional to the volume of the argument, amused him.Did they realise the heart burn their futile rantings were causing them?However,soon,his cigarette's burnt end reminded him that his lungs needed his attention more than their hearts.He flicked it away -- guilt ridden, for depriving his lungs of a few gasp-free breaths,in a comparatively healthy body.
                                              Chandni.

Saturday, 13 September 2014

The Link


   
She sat there listening to his voice.It was like a daily ritual and she's been performing it for the last 20 years.Not a day went by when she wouldn't insert the audio cassette into the player and hear it over and over again.No,it was not a song.But for her,it was the finest music she'd ever listen to.All it had was just one line,"Mamma,I love you." With tears shimmering in her eyes and a smile,she'd mouth,"I love you,too."Later she'd caress the cassette with infinite tenderness.It was her last link to her long gone son. 
                                                 Chandni.

Monday, 8 September 2014

Honestly

I'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU...Do you hear that?Agreed I made mistakes the first time..so? I am not giving up on Hope.God won't let me...because He loves me,I know.If at all,and ever you feel the need to come looking for me,you know where to find me.Having said that, I would like to wish you, with all my heart the best of luck.Have a great life!

Monday, 1 September 2014

Being Happy

Happiness....the most misconstrued entity the human race has ever been offered .Nobody knows for sure what is this thing called happiness,yet we chase it relentlessly and tirelessly. Ironically,the more we pursue it,the more elusive it gets.
  The poets and philosophers have identified it as nothing but a state of mind.Sounds a good enough concept .Perhaps this is the reason each one of us has our own way of looking at it and accordingly we strive to find it in places that suit our convenience.For the starving, nothing makes them happier than that piece of bread.Their glee knows no bounds when the rich find it resting in their coffers.Besides, there are the self proclaimed  servants of God who never tire of letting the world know how they have  attained bliss in their unwavering service to the Almighty,mentioning nothing about their moral obligations to humanity.And then there are the lovers, the only breed who seek happiness in another of their kind.But the question is how!
   Our natural tendency is to possess.Very human.No matter how vocal we get about being happy in unconditional love,when it comes to practising it, we cannot deny the fact that our hearts are just not conditioned that way. Maybe,this is the only line of demarcation between human and Divine love.Small wonder that the happiness that we seek in love is so fraught with doubts,uncertainty and selfishness.
     However,once in a while there comes a great love,probably in everyone's life,which recognizes no boundaries.It attains the freedom to love in it's purest form,devoid of all negativity.Ofcourse,it doesn't happen overnight.Time plays the key part here.Happiness no longer remains confined to the self.It is sought in the eyes of your beloved and then to ensure their happiness,no price seems too high. No,not even relinquishing your claim over them if you happen to know where their true happiness lies!Ofcourse it'd hurt but then when you realize that you have just let them be, but haven't let them go,their happiness, somehow manages to become yours.The best part happens, when you admit it to yourself that you can never abandon them,for you can't utter a prayer without mentioning them,no matter where you are, how you are , whether you are visible to them or not.After all,old habits die hard!That,I think is the ultimate source of happiness. 
   I don't know if I conform to the idea of others' definition of bliss or for that matter if i've been able to capture the essence of happiness , but I am pretty much sure this is what contentment looks like.
                                              Chandni.