I don't know how to say but I do know what to say.I want to talk about life.No,I am not a philosopher either!Life for me was when my parents were alive.The three of us,me and my two elder sisters, had a decent childhood,thanks to them.My mother's world revolved around the four of us.She hadn't a clue what was going on in the world outside,and she couldn't care less.She was happy,if we were!On the other hand,my father was diametrically opposite to her.He was more outgoing and extremely social.His job in the aviation industry brought him in contact with a lot of people and quite obviously had a large social circle.But, as far as his daughters were concerned,compromise never featured in the scheme of things.He was a disciplanarian,but not in the conventional sense.He was that friend that every growing up girl would love to have.Nothing unusual,i guess.However,in our case ,we were totally at ease with him.There were NO secrets and NO lies,whatsoever.Never needed to resort to those,fortunately.That's what life was all about,until then.
But then,people say,life thrives on change. Ironically,when life is going through a change in some place,somewhere else it comes to a stand still,like in our world did.In 2001 ,my father was diagonised with throat cancer and exactly nine months later he left us.The world didn't come crashing down,neither did it stop revolving,but it stopped moving.Since my sisters had been married and had their own lives to take care of,I was left alone to look after mly mother.....only for the next three years.She died fretting.She missed dad terribly; she had never been able to come to terms with his loss,we knew it.
I didn't know what to make of life.Actually,I didn't need to know that,because i couldn't find a trace of it anywhere.Thankfully,you do not need a life to exist.So ,I existed.It would be extremely unfair to God if i didn't mention His contribution in making the existence a little more tolerable.He appeared in the form of friends and family.
I wonder,if He was trying to compensate!
And then,oneday life gets bored of it's constant change.So, it decides to create some changes----and I call them life changing events.They shake you to the core and the perspective of life takes a complete U turn.My relationship with God has always been very simple.....He set the rules and I broke them and I heard Him laugh,indulgently,every single time.I didn't know then but now I know the reason of His mirth.Suddenly,out of the blue,He presented life in a shade darker ,like the brooding sky before the storm.I was awe struck.It was distant,but I couldn't take my mind off.There the thunder rolled,here the clouds rained tears.I was sucked into the vortex of this whirl wind.With time,the storm settled down in me and I had a closer look into it's soul.I detected a white light,not blinding but beautiful enough to illuminate my own darkness.I was intoxicated.And then I felt a connection.Somehow,I am not surprised.I don't know why and frankly ,I couldn't care less,just like my mother!If If it's His wish,it has to be my command.I can break His rules ,I cannot go against His wish.Who knows what tomorrow holds in it's womb but as of today,this is my life and this is why i live.....for better or for worse....rightly or wrongly.
But then,people say,life thrives on change. Ironically,when life is going through a change in some place,somewhere else it comes to a stand still,like in our world did.In 2001 ,my father was diagonised with throat cancer and exactly nine months later he left us.The world didn't come crashing down,neither did it stop revolving,but it stopped moving.Since my sisters had been married and had their own lives to take care of,I was left alone to look after mly mother.....only for the next three years.She died fretting.She missed dad terribly; she had never been able to come to terms with his loss,we knew it.
I didn't know what to make of life.Actually,I didn't need to know that,because i couldn't find a trace of it anywhere.Thankfully,you do not need a life to exist.So ,I existed.It would be extremely unfair to God if i didn't mention His contribution in making the existence a little more tolerable.He appeared in the form of friends and family.
I wonder,if He was trying to compensate!
And then,oneday life gets bored of it's constant change.So, it decides to create some changes----and I call them life changing events.They shake you to the core and the perspective of life takes a complete U turn.My relationship with God has always been very simple.....He set the rules and I broke them and I heard Him laugh,indulgently,every single time.I didn't know then but now I know the reason of His mirth.Suddenly,out of the blue,He presented life in a shade darker ,like the brooding sky before the storm.I was awe struck.It was distant,but I couldn't take my mind off.There the thunder rolled,here the clouds rained tears.I was sucked into the vortex of this whirl wind.With time,the storm settled down in me and I had a closer look into it's soul.I detected a white light,not blinding but beautiful enough to illuminate my own darkness.I was intoxicated.And then I felt a connection.Somehow,I am not surprised.I don't know why and frankly ,I couldn't care less,just like my mother!If If it's His wish,it has to be my command.I can break His rules ,I cannot go against His wish.Who knows what tomorrow holds in it's womb but as of today,this is my life and this is why i live.....for better or for worse....rightly or wrongly.
